{"id":207,"date":"2021-04-04T14:29:03","date_gmt":"2021-04-04T20:29:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/?p=207"},"modified":"2021-04-04T15:59:10","modified_gmt":"2021-04-04T21:59:10","slug":"her-rage","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/her-rage\/","title":{"rendered":"Her Rage"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I am getting acquainted with my rage.\u00a0
Learning her edges, her boundaries, her heat.\u00a0
Coaxing her from the box to which she has been banished for so long. Too long.\u00a0
Banished, because rage<\/em> is such a dirty word for a woman to wield.\u00a0
An unladylike word. Too much. Too hard.
Angry woman.
Nasty woman. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

But there is no light without darkness. And I have been afraid of my darkness for far too long.
I have been afraid of everything for far too long.\u00a0

Afraid of being rejected by those from whom I so desperately seek approval.\u00a0
Afraid of neglecting the deepest parts of myself in exchange for social safety.
Afraid of not being enough, of being too much, of caring too much, of being perceived to care too\u00a0little, of every single interaction as if my worth is tied to external validation rather than the power that swims deep in my veins.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have been so worried about being rejected, unwanted, cast out.\u00a0
But now, rejection is the stone upon which I whet my rage.

I reject the container that society has built to cage me.\u00a0
The expectation that I will tear my sisters down rather than build them up.
The myth that I should be seen and not heard.
Every tale ever told designed to keep me small and weak and alone. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I reject the expectation that my body is anyone\u2019s business but my own.\u00a0
That what I lose and what I gain and what I grow and cut and mark is something to be commented upon.
Judged upon. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I reject the rule that my relationships must adhere to standards passed down by men too afraid to witness a woman\u2019s passion laid bare and her heart laid open.\u00a0
That love is finite.
That my sexuality must be defined as either this, or that. For I am neither this nor that and my relationship, whatever they may be, are mine and mine alone. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I reject the notion that I must choose – soft or hard, light or dark, feminine or masculine.
I reject the expectation that I dress a certain way, act a certain way, talk a certain way to make the world comfortable.The world needs to be less comfortable with what is, because what is is killing us, slowly and quickly in all the ways we will not realize until we wake up one day and see that we have been dead for all this time.
<\/strong>
I reject the thought that I cannot be both enraged and have unconditional love in my heart.\u00a0
<\/strong>
I reject every word uttered with the intent to maim and wound, sentences brandished like scalpels, precise cuts to the core in jealousy and fear.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am not here for your pleasure.\u00a0
I am not here to shield you from your insecurities.
I am not here for your standards. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am getting acquainted with my rage. Learning her power, her love, her voice.\u00a0
The box has been opened.\u00a0
And if I am to be a warning, a cautionary tale, like Pandora, like Eve, like every woman framed to be an agent of chaos,
Let the warning be this.\u00a0
Our voices cannot be tamed.
Our bodies cannot be claimed.
And if you try to take our mother given power, we will rise.
And we will rage. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

<\/h2>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n
\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I am getting acquainted with my rage.
\nLearning her edges, her boundaries, her heat.
\nCoaxing her from the box to which she has been banished for so long. Too long.
\nBanished, because rage is such a dirty word for a woman to wield. – Meghan Victoria<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"advanced_seo_description":"Rage in Women, A woman's rage, Afraid no more, Boxed by Expectation, Reject Uniformity, Conformity, Love is Uncompromising, Love is Love, Standards Broken, Unconditional Lov","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"HER RAGE\nby Meghan Victoria\n\nI am getting acquainted with my rage. \nLearning her edges, her boundaries, her heat. \nCoaxing her from the box to which she has been banished for so long. Too long. \nBanished, because rage is such a dirty word","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[4,46,48,3],"tags":[65,61,58,50,60,24,59,55,64,32,63,57],"class_list":["post-207","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog-post","category-inspiration","category-personal","category-the-corner-lot-authors","tag-determination","tag-expectation","tag-fear","tag-inspiration","tag-love","tag-meghanvictoria","tag-myth","tag-rage","tag-rise","tag-thecornerlotauthors","tag-voice","tag-woman","post-preview"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":116,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/how-to-release-your-magic\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":0},"title":"How to Release Your Magic","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"December 7, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"To release your magic, follow these instructions exactly. Do not falter, do not hesitate. Do not look back from where you\u2019ve come, or forward to where you\u2019re going. Be here, in this moment, right now. - Meghan Victoria","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/M6.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/M6.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/M6.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/M6.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":93,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/bad-poetry-and-weird-kids\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":1},"title":"Bad Poetry and Weird Kids","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"May 11, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"I was a weird kid. Nothing reminds me of this more than stumbling across scraps of old writing. I\u2019m the girl who detailed an entire map and convinced her best friend there was treasure buried in the backyard... - Meghan Victoria","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegBPWKB.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegBPWKB.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegBPWKB.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":150,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/bornforthis\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":2},"title":"You Were Born for This. All of It.","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"March 9, 2021","format":false,"excerpt":"There is a hand written letter that sits on my altar. Like everything that graces this sacred space, it was a gift. Secured from drafts of air by a moonrock, it sits opposite my incense burner, beside my candles of light and dark, behind gifts of stone and string and\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/YWBFAOT2B.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/YWBFAOT2B.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/YWBFAOT2B.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":108,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/a-limited-number-of-twilights\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":3},"title":"A Limited Number of Twilights","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"August 31, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"On Monday, a dear friend died. He was young, and vibrant, and full of kindness and love and light. He had been sick for a while, but as prepared as you think you can be, you\u2019re never actually prepared to never see someone again. - Meghan Victoria","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegLNTA.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":104,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/dear-men\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":4},"title":"Dear Men","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"July 6, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"Covid has me cleaning out closets and getting rid of old baggage. A cathartic reorganization of past memories that no longer serve me. Ass kicking my way down memory lane, cherry picking what to hold on to and what to let go. - Meghan Victoria","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegDMA.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":113,"url":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/113-2\/","url_meta":{"origin":207,"position":5},"title":"Find Your People. Love Them Hard.","author":"Meghan Victoria","date":"October 12, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"You sit down in your basement or bedroom or whatever hovel you\u2019ve dedicated to grinding out your current project and you get on with it. And when you\u2019re done, you celebrate with people who love you but who can never really understand the act of inking your soul onto a\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blog Post"","block_context":{"text":"Blog Post","link":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/category\/the-corner-lot-authors\/blog-post\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/MegFYPLTHA.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]}],"amp_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/207","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=207"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/207\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":223,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/207\/revisions\/223"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=207"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=207"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thecornerlotauthors.com\/meghanvictoria\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=207"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}